I was lost again
in a familiar place
where those who said they loved me
were otherwise occupied
and aloof
I was lost again
in a familiar place
where instead of kindness and protection
I was devalued
and ignored
I was lost again
in a familiar place
where I was given burdens
and my arms reached out
for more
then I found myself
in this familiar place
noticing my patterns
noticing my tendencies
noticing what I tolerate
and wondering if I should
so I navigated my way
from the familiar place
realizing that even though
comfortable and known
it was slowly
and persistently
extinguishing
my light
now here I am
in an unfamiliar place
unfettered
alive
and learning
~Ann Betz, 2022, Santa Fe